Micah Turns Six

 Last week Micah had his 6th Birthday and he was very spoilt. It was on a school day so I got Kerry to give him one of his presents before he went to work which was an Oodie (hooded blanket) he looks so cute in it. He happily went off to school with cupcakes to share with his whole class. After school I skipped soccer training, I rented a movie called Bad Guys on Apple TV to watch, and his dinner request was KFC so that's what we got. I didn't work that night so it was really nice to just be home. 

The Greenings arrived on Friday afternoon to stay for the weekend and he got so many presents from Camilla. On Saturday Carter and Micah had their soccer games and Mathias had a rugby game then three of Micahs school friends came over for his birthday party. I really hate 'school friends' birthday parties, especially little kids, it's just crazy. I'm glad we only had three friends, it was still crazy, they were just running around everywhere like little mice backwards and forwards, side to side, with nerf guns shooting bullets. Anyway, Micah had fun and that's what he wanted and that's all I care about. 

Oakley is defiantly on the mend now which is so great. I did get sick, not too bad I think. I felt incredibly run down, physically and mentally. I had my regular check-in appointment with my Dr on Monday and gosh, in that appointment the niggling feelings that had been beneath the surface for the last couple weeks came up, it was the pause and the check-in to actually acknowledge that I was feeling so overwhelmed and struggling to keep up with all my responsibilities and things I need and want to do. I know I have a lot on my plate all the time, it's pretty much a given with a growing young family of seven to organise and work. I felt like I couldn't breath. It's surprising, and I guess it shouldn't be by now, but since Monday I've been feeling a bit better emotionally. When I got home from my Dr appointment I Phoned Kerry and broke down and told him everything about where I was at emotionally, just so that he knows and is aware. And I do feel better expressing those feelings that I hadn't given the time to pause and process. I knew they were there, but I just ignored them and went on to the next thing I had to get done. 

Anyhow, I know I have a bit of work to do in taking care of myself there and asking for help. I miss mum, I'm looking forward to her coming home this weekend. I video called Tali and the kids today, they are so flippin' cute! and baby Ralph is just so so so precious. ahh they grow so freaking fast in the first 12 months, it's a bitter sweet... ok mostly sweet, but I just wish it could last longer Oakley is nearly six months now, what the heck! Crazy crazy

Spent

 So I have this app on my phone that Sariah got me on, that prompts me to check-in three times a day (I rarely do it three times a day, it's just the goal) the other day I was looking through the range of feelings to select from and I was trying to find 'exhausted' haha but I couldn't find it. I did find one called 'spent' which turns out, is pretty much the exact same thing. in the app it is described as feeling extremely exhausted, both in body and in mind. so yeah, that pretty much sums up the last week for me! It's a trip! Oh and it's FREEZING! but I've re-discovered the genius of hot. water. bottles!! seriously, so freaking good! I'm in love with mine. ok ok so I'll try my best to re-cap the last week, but remember I'm spent, so if it doesn't make any sense at all, that's why. I literally got pulled over at an RBT on Monday and the police man was like, are you alright? are you tired? and I was like ...ahhh ahhhh, no, I'm not tired...mum brain! hahahaha 

sick kids. Last week started with Carter and Mathias. Mathias was find after one day off school on the Monday, then he was back into it but Carter got a congested sounding cough and high temperatures and a sore throat some nausea but no vomiting. I took him to the DR who did a PCR on him which came back positive for Influenza A, one of the more sever strands. so the order was pretty much what we were already doing, rest, keep fluids up, soft foods, and paracetamol. Thursday Micahs cough started to sound more like Carters and he was waking up in the night screaming with a sore throat. so Thursday and Friday Micah was home as well. This was all on top of the usual running around, and working. Saturday, I was SMASHED! I was so tired I had a sore head and nausea which progressively got worse throughout the day. but I had a lot I wanted to get done so I took paracetamol which took the edge off, and laid down to sneak in a rest when I felt I could. Sunday, Kerry worked so I just planned to spend the entire day in bed, which I did, and it was soooo needed, even most of Monday I was resting too and I started cold and flu tablets just incase, because you know, mums can not get sick! but Monday, the inevitable happened and Oakley started with the same congested sounding cough and high temperatures. by Tuesday he was miserable, I am certain he has the flu from Carter, I took him to the DR who checked him over, and sent us to the emergency department to get checked over again too. Oakley and I were there from 5-9pm. I took him to the DR yesterday and were going again this afternoon just to check in, and monitor him closely. I think he has turned a corner and is over the worst of it, finders, legs and toes crossed. 

AND It's Micahs birthday today. He asked me to make cupcakes for him to take to school, so I brought a packet mix yesterday, got called into work 6-11pm so made them when I got home and set up some Happy Birthday decorations for him. I love making an effort to make his day special. Got up this morning and made him pancakes and ice cream for breakfast. Kerry gave him a birthday present, his Oodie which he absolutely loves, but then was like ' ok, next!? where are more presents?' 🙄 of course I have more presents but I was like, the nerve! haha anyway, Oakley is having such a great sleep, he's been asleep for over two hours, I would 100% be there with him but a friend was stopping by to drop off some sausages he made and the house looked like a dump, so I cleaned while I waited for my friend to come by. then, here I am lol. 

Spent.

First day of Winter

 Winter is officially here and it's pretty darn cold. 

Taylah has been in New Zealand for 1 week now and it looks and sounds like she's having an awesome holiday meeting so many family members and seeing some of New Zealands beautiful places and of course eating all the yummy NZ foods. She comes home this Saturday and as much as I'm excited for her to be on this holiday, I miss her and can't wait to have her home again. 

We took the boys into the city on Friday night for the opening night of Vivid. The Greenings came too. It is so cool to take them into the city and the lights are pretty awesome to see. I absolutely love Sydney and going there brings back many fond memories. We got back home at 3am so Saturday I slept in, Mathias had a rugby game in Sydney so was on the school bus by 7.30am and didn't get home until about 8pm he was so very tired. Carter went to a friends birthday party while I took Micah to his soccer game. He scored 3 goals and got player of the week along with a $5 voucher for Annies Ice Cream so I took him straight there before we picked Carter up and came home.

Monday I took my car in for a service and rego check and it failed. We have to get two new Tyers and replace the windscreen before they'll pass it which will cost about $900 😢 so that's been a bit stressful. I also went to my dentist on Friday for a consultation, I go back to her tomorrow, she's going to repair the tooth that has broken off my plate, I just hope it works and stays on there. 

Mathias is dancing in the Dubbo eisteddfod this Sunday and I missed out on tickets to it so I'm hoping he can get a ride with someone from his dance class. We were also meant to be going to Gosford next weekend for NSW Country Basketball Comp but we're not going to anymore, We've asked someone from the team to take Mathias. Kind of dumb, but it's gotta be done.

Oakley is going through a phase at the moment, he only likes to sleep in our bed, with me. It's hard to get him to sleep and to stay asleep unless I have him sleep with me. I don't mind him sleeping with me for the most part, I love it. however, I don't sleep as well because it's a little more uncomfortable for me and when I'm lying down to sleep with him during the days and at night, my shoulders and arms get sore/stiff so I just need a break. I can hardly believe how fast he is growing and how big he is getting. next week he will hit 5 months old!

Work is going well, I'm back into it and enjoying it as much as I can. I actually don't mind just doing the 3-3.5hr shifts because it reduces the time I'm away from Oakley. He is getting much better with taking a bottle if he needs one while I'm working. At first he was very confused by it, but now he's doing great, and still breastfeeding really well too.

It's Micahs birthday this month and he wants a birthday party with some friends from school, so of course, I will do it for him. I hate birthday parties with school kids with a passion and in my 15.5 years of being a mother, have never thrown one so I guess that's not too bad. He is so super excited for his birthday, he's been waiting at least 6 months for it, counting down the days...literally. He's having three friends over, so now I need to figure out what to do with them!? He really wants to play pass-the-parcel because there's a Bluey episode about it. I don't know what else haha I was thinking maybe a nerf gun fight because that's one of the things he's getting for his birthday, and the boys play it often. I'm just a little weary that other 5-6 year-olds may not play gun games like mine does. I don't know, guess I'll figure it out.