I have so many thoughts flowing through me right now I can't sleep until a jot down a few thoughts.
I have been on anti depressants for two weeks now. The first week I felt no different. This week I do.
It took me a little while to realise, but I feel it, and it's wonderful and strange. Clearer, like a dark cloud has been lifted from my mind, it really is amazing to realise I haven't felt this way in a really long time and I missed it and my husband missed it.
I haven't started seeing the physiologist or councilor yet, but I don't feel so scared or anxious anymore.
Taylah-benet is back at school and is now in year 2. Mathias started school now too and he absolutely loves it. My fears of him having separation anxiety were in vain, the morning of his first day of school he was up at 6.30 am singing and shouting "I'm going to school today, woo hoo, woo hoo!!!" Seriously! I've never seen anyone THAT excited to be going to school.
I also have been enjoying the 'quite' time. Mathias makes so much noise where ever he goes, he doesn't do quite ever. I've been able to enjoy alone time with Carter and doing a few more things around the house while he sleeps and a couple times even enjoyed having a sleep myself while Carter sleeps!
Carter is turning 2 next week!! Where did those two years go!
