I absolutely love hearing my children pray. They are so particularly thoughtful and say the plainest and sweetest things.
Tonight Taylah said our family prayer and there was a moment were my heart went all warm and fuzzy, I sneaked a glance at Kerry and he did the same to me and we smiled.
It was such a sweet moment where I felt I must be doing at least one thing right as her mother to for her to whisper such a sweet prayer.
We found a house to rent. This is the our first time renting and I hate it already. I'm constantly worried about the carpet, the floor boards, the walls, the deck and everything else! Kerry and I have been very blessed to have never had these concerns before, but now, they are all I think about. Yesterday for example, Kerry and I were mowing the lawns while the kids played together on the deck. Next thing I see they came out the front to where we were working and Carter has white stuff on his feet and in between his toes. I went to investigate, only to find what looked like white paint all over the deck. It was silicone. White Waterproof silicone!! So we then spent the next couple of hours scrubbing the deck with the only thing that would get it off, a steal brush, which evidently takes off some of the deck paint with it!! So now we have the task of trying to fix it up which may very well be painting the entire deck!!
All that said and done, it is so nice to have our own space again after so long. We could never express how grateful we are to our family that opened up their home to our family of five for the last five months. We could not have done any of this without their love a support.
Our first week in our house was a tough one for me. Having our own place to live and now all of our belongings here too made the move to Cowra feel all the more real. Not having the constant company of my aunt and her kids I felt like I had lost a safety net and I was out on my own to find my own place here in Cowra and I was lonely.
My husband and kids are so happy here and were so busy being happy didn't realize how unhappy I was. I felt alone.
I finally found the opportunity to open up to my husband who was apologetic and sympathetic. He gave me a blessing and helped me work through my feelings.
Even though I was experiencing this unhappiness, I know that my husband and I made the right choice to move here. There are several things that testify to me of that.
So, I decided to try harder to find my happy here in Cowra. I have started running which is a complete surprise because I really hate running. But I started for two reasons. The first being I believe it will help me stay on track with my weight loss goals and second to help me get out there and meet people. So far it is going great (except for that one time I saw a snake! ) it's actually kind of fun.
Taylah and Mathias started school last week. Taylah got the teacher she was hoping for and I don't know much about Mathias teacher yet but haven't had any complaints yet.
Carter went to preschool for the very first time last week and I felt like my heart was being ripped from me! I found it so difficult to leave him. Carter on the other hand didn't flinch. He got straight into playing and loved it. We are trying to toilet train him at the moment which he is not showing any interest in at all but we'll keep trying.
Mum and sariah have found a house to rent in Orange. I'm excited to have my mum much closer than I thought I would.
I'm also excited (and a little jealous) my oldest sister and her family have purchased a home south of Sydney .
It's going to be another excited year ahead :)
